La loooooovin, like tupac would have said.

Me and Nicole broke up today. I think it was the best thing for both of us, of course she was not happy and she felt hurt. I am sorry for her sake, but I am not mature and secure enough to handle a serious relationship that will bring happiness to both of us. That was the hardest part of braking up, admitting that I am not developed enough to handle it. Then again, it was probably the most mature thing to realize that that is the truth, and telling Nicole the truth like I see it. The title of this post might be a bit misleading, namely because I was in a good mood when I put the title down. Then when I reflected over what had happened today, the topic changed. However, I am also happy for the same reason that we have broken up. I am free to develop myself and find true security, confidence and openness within myself without having to worry about how the changes might affect another person whose well-being I am responsible for. Its like when you have a car that needs service and has a flat-tire, you dont go driving it on the freeway. You dont pretend that the car is perfectly fine and drive around in it.